Silver Lining

I am having a hard time introducing a topic on my blog. I feel the need to go on an on and discuss everything from waaaaay back! I know I haven't even tackled a single thing about how I am surviving my life as a mom of twins. That was so high up my priority list when I was brainstorming for this new blog. I feel overwhelmed with the need to share with you guys everything that I've been through for the past 9 months. That is seriously alot of material! So I took a breather and decided to just tackle what I am currently experiencing with my beauties. I will just go back and discuss things I suddenly remember or just go through my journal back then.

Sooo anyway my twins turmed 9 months this March! That is as much time as they spent inside me give or take a few days. JUST WOW!!!  I remember reading Sweet Valley (Kids - University) and thinking how cool it is to have a twin. I bet we all entertained that thought growing up to that book series. However I also remember quickly dismissing it in my head, the impossibility of it all. Did not even get to thinking of how cool it would be to have twin sons/daughters - well look where were at now. HAHA

My babies are actually talking and playing with each other already. I am a much amused spectator to this world of their own. So with this recent development, I am starting to see the benefits of having these 2 babies at once thing. If at first it was all the trouble of all your expenses doubling and you being twice sleep and energy deprived - now I am seeing the silver lining.  I think it is about time to relax and truly enjoy this blessing I have been given. 

1. All that weird stares that I got when pregnant is paying off. I am this really petite girl with this huge pregnant belly. It was a surprise how I don't topple over. Now that they are finally out of me, we make quite a cute group. HAHA Smiles and compliments are now a norm. Totally an instant mood enhancer!

2. I have given my babies an instant best friend. They will always, always have each other. They never have to face anything alone if they do not want to. AND REALLY this also translates to more spare time for MOMMY!  I can leave them on their own to entertain and amuse each other. HAHA

3. They learn to share early on, such an important life lesson. No more awkward moments at pre-school! This also means that I will feel less guilty on splurging on humongous toys! Hello dollhouses, jungle gyms and board games!!!

4. I saved this one for last. Nothing more touching seeing the two of them together, loving each other. Though  now it is restrained to simple gestures like a pat on the head, a smile when they see the other or waking the other up as soon as the other wakes. I melt. 

 I am sure my list will get longer as my twins get older too.

 

I am glad I was able to share this with all of you. Maybe it will help remind us all that our trials always yield amazing things. May it be something tangible and material or just a great change in how we are as persons. I am truly grateful God entrusted me with such a precious challenge. I am loving how this is changing me.

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much love

Spoiled No Longer

I finally had a serious talk with my eldest C about his upcoming birthday celebration.  I have been torturing myself over the fact that we cannot provide him with a party this year.  Being in big school, he  is now open to more party invitations and our guest list would have increased in number too.  It wouldn't have been an issue since his birthday falls during summer vacation already but he has such a n outgoing attitude. He wants to be able to invite his friends for a party too and has been asking us for one. 

Its just so heartbreaking but I laid down all the facts for him to understand. I really believe in letting my child know whats the deal. I am probably making him grow up and mature a bit too soon but that has always been our relationship.  So anyway I told him it would be hard this year since it would be his sisters' 1st birthday also. Way harsh I know. I know I should always, always try not to blame the babies to avoid resentment from him. He has been taking everything on quite well already. 

I am actually proud of how I raised this lil one. I seriously do not know how that happened but nonetheless I am extremely grateful. He is so aware already of how to be generous in many ways and be conscious of others. I feel guilty to not be able to spoil him anymore. But reality and practicality hits. He has been our one and only for 5 years and has been so spoiled all those times.

To make him feel a bit better we went through all his past birthdays and reminisced on how we celebrated them. I think it was a pretty successful gesture. We have been giving him big parties until he was 3. When he was 4 we drew the line and just had a simple celeb at home but ended up going with fam to Enchanted Kingdom.  On his 5th birthday even though I was in bed rest, pregnant with the twins we were able to sneak in a quickie lunch out for pizza and pasta, his fave. His Auntie also stepped up and baked him a cake with all his favorite chocolates as topping! So all 5 years have been great really and going through all his photos helped remind him and ME of that. 

We also discussed that you usually throw big parties for the 1st and 7th year anyways and he has been quite lucky already. So what really got him out of his funk is the fact that I promised him a big one for next year! He got so excited and started writing down the guest list already which consisted of his entire class and cousins! HAHA I had to remind him that he will have a different set of classmates next year and he said that is exactly why we have to write it down so he won't forget to invite them! So the list is now stuck on our fridge door!

I think it was me that felt more relieved after our talk. It is so important to me that he understands that we love him dearly and there are other ways for us to show him that. I think I am being self-conscious especially now that we have the twins to share our love and attention. I remember thinking and being scared (ok I am admitting this to all of you) that I cannot love my daughters as much as I love C. We have been partners for so long. He occupies this big chunk in my heart I do not know if I have enough space for more. BUT of course all my fears were unfounded.  It should have been C that I should have been worried about. But again he proved me lucky.  I have the best son a mom could ever ask for. He just makes it not EASY but at least less challenging.

So to all readers do not worry, this boy will still have a celebration. It may be small this time but we will all shower him with love and attention that he truly and completely deserves!

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much love

Tough Chick

 We have been hearing and feeling that summer is so near yet last Sunday the skies begged to differ. I was so excited laying down the outfits for my kiddos all summery and in theme when I looked outside the window and saw that it was drizzling!!! So had to scrape that out and opted for a different outfit.

Pink and White Polka dot Bolero and Denim jeggings from BKK c/o Mammu, Burberry Sneaks from Kuya C c/o Auntie Marie and Headband handmade by yours truly =)

Sandra all smiles! Unfortunately Lila was still asleep and not available for a photo op hihihi

 I never thought I would ever put my babies in pants. You guys know me - frills and frou frou all the way! However being a mom you know you just gotta be reasonable sometimes and go with comfort. And really guys these jeggings make their legs all the more nakakagigil!!! hahaha

Cousins altogether!

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much love